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Monday, December 22, 2008

TRUE FRENDS.
just a simple 2 words yet it always mean a lot to any of us.

i LOVE my friends, thank God for ALL of them.

Labels: feelings

Sunday, September 28, 2008

can't u see the sadness

when u look at me?

don't u feel the hurt my smile is hiding?

Won't you

see through the veil of my heart, and know what its hiding there?

don't u see the tears in my eyes?

can't u feel the pain in my heart?

can you?

won't you ?

Do you?

Labels: feelings

Saturday, August 23, 2008

duuno why I'm writing this, just felt that i needed to.
just doing it out of boredom.. ^^

The Journey Through My ~~heart~~ exams

[[lets skip the part where i study very hard till ~~late night~~ early mornings everyday, getting just a few hours sleep, and feeling sick and tired so easily]]
*blablablablablabla*

07.08.2008 ( THURSDAY )
okay, exams started with a ~~bang!!~~ deep cry of despair.
it was BC paper 2 and BI paper 2.
as usual, i studied for other subjects. Coz i know I'm going to fail if I didn't.
(other subjects = History, geography, science, KHB = subjects i will fail if don't study it)
BC paper was OK la. The essay, haix, duno what I'm writing. but the rest was okay.
BI paper was like...easy lo. But the novel question, zzz.
" write ONE of the following moral values found in the novel "
i wrote 3 of them because there were 3 moral values listed there.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
scare Bi no A this time..

08.08.2008 (FRIDAY)
good thing Olympics opening was today! (tomorrow no class)
today, on the menu, we have : BM paper 2 & BC paper 1..
BM paper was GOOD.
teacher gave us essay question that we already done before.
but i didn't choose it. I choose to write something bout a 'clean toilets' campaign
all went well. i think BM have a chance to get A lo...woo hoo~~
BC , haix, no need to say la. i will will be happy if i even get a B.
enjoyed the Olympics opening ceremony really much..
fell asleep watching the countries go by.
didn't prepare for Monday at all.

11.08.2008 (MONDAY)
ooo... SC paper 2 and BM paper 1..
did i mention i didn't study or revise?
so...
I'm going to be veeeery honest.
i cheated.
a lot. like. half of the paper?
done.
NEXT!
BM paper..woo! the answers i guessed all correct~
so far i know i only have 2 wrong..
wahaahaz..
bm got chance to get A~ I'm happy coz i never got A. blehz..
i hope i do.
i didn't even cheated

12.08.2008
MX paper 2 and PM
spent the whole day revising for this.
went to sleep at 1.30am
Mx..aiks...some dunno..
but i didn't cheat.
pm was easy.
everybody said it was hard.
but then. Studying pm till late night pays off rite?

13.08.2008
SEJ , GEO , and BI paper 1
sejarah still okay coz i did study. a tiny bit.
went to class in the morning. EVERYONE STUDYING.
first time in ma entire life.
geo, haix, din study, so you noe lo.
BI, finished in 15 mins.
found that i made a mistake after test..

WHY CAN'T ZAHID BE OBSERVANT!?!?!? WHY MUST HE HAS TO BE INQUISITIVE??

14.08.2008
PSV and KHB
worked my butt of trying to draw something nice during yesterday.
it paid off.
at least i can finally draw something that's lookable.
but then. KHB.liaw.
i cheated again. like 3 quarters?

15.08.2008
MX paper 1 + SC paper 1
mx...do till so shuang..
at question 20 outta 40
me :"ei, wads the time now a?"
jason: "left 10 minutes."
me:" WHAA!?!?! "

liaw lo..
so in the end...
have to cheat again..
few questions nia la..
SC, oso quite some duno.
so i had to cheat again lo.
haix..

me ( trying to disturb teacher ) :" ei, teacher, science very hard a! "
Pn.Chin :" no ler, ur paper 2 is the highest so far. "
me:" !!! "

haix. not even i do de. how to be happy?
okay , that's the end.
I promise not to do that thing next time..
tadaa~~

Labels: exams, feelings

Sunday, August 17, 2008

BEIJING: Lee Chong Wei won the silver medal in the badminton men's singles after losing in the final to China’s Lin Dan 12-21, 8-21.
The world No 2 lost in two straight sets, faltering to Lin Dan, who remains the top men’s singles shuttler in the world.
In previous clashes between the two, Lin Dan had won nine times while Chong Wei had won five times.
The last time a Malaysian shuttler won a medal at the Olympics was in Atlanta in 1996 when Rashid Sidek took the bronze in the men’s singles and Cheah Soon Kit-Yap Kim Hock won the silver for the men’s doubles.
Rashid’s brothers Razif and Jailani won Malaysia’s first Olympic medal in Barcelona, Spain, in 1992 when they won a bronze in the men’s doubles.
Chong Wei got to the final by beating South Korean Lee Hyun-il, 21-18, 13-21, 21-13, while Lin Dan defeated fellow countryman Chen Jin in the semi-final, 21-12 , 21-18.
Despite failing to get the gold medal, Chong Wei is set to obtain RM300,000 from the Government for winning the silver medal. The Government had promised RM1mil as an incentive to any athlete who returns with an Olympic gold medal; RM300,000 for silver and RM100,000 for bronze.

source : http://thestar.com.my/sports/story.asp?file=/2008/8/17/olympics/20080817214123&sec=olympics

ARGHHH!!!
waaahh.....

he lost...
he lost...

Watching him play, whole family quiet...not a sound. They were too many groans and little cheers. After losing the first set, I thought he would rally back. My dad said it was over. But it was too hard to believe. Then, he lost. Watching Lin Dan jumping and throwing off his things and losing himself, I was disappointed.
but still..
BE PROUD Malaysia!!

even though he lost, he still is a champion, no matter how many Lin dans or whoever else...
I STILL SUPPORT YOU!!
GO LEE CHONG WEI!! MALAYSIA STILL SUPPORTS YOU!!

Labels: badminton, feelings, olympics

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

finally...it all comes to an end. The times when laughter was all about, the times when tears were dropped, the times when the feeling of hopelessness took control, the times when i was scolded for not practising, the times when i was pleased with what i played...is like ..[[g.o.n.e.]]

My piano journey is finished. I don't really know what else to say coz Yesh had already said everything I'm feeling in her blog. haha. =p ~~GO SEE!~~

Wau.. grade 8 finished..it seemed like a long long time ago when i first started learning the piano... and now, it comes to an end..

FEELINGS?

well, I'll give you the word equation.

[happy+proud+relieved+sad+disappointed+worried+anxious?]

Well, I'm happy coz i finished it, and i really did my best in the last month to improve everything. I tried everything i could and now everything is in Your hands.. xDD I'm a tiny bit unsatisfied.. coz i feel i could always do better if i practiced hard before this. Well, what can i do? everything has happen and is going to be like that forever.

whether another chapter is going to be continued in this journey, i really don't know.

but all i want to do is be happy about what I've done and achieved so far and also, enjoy life without the piano.

I'm going to miss it.piano exams.piano lesson.piano teacher.

yeah, as Yesh puts it, piano lessons don't just teach someone the notes. Through this journey i learned lots like to trust God when we are in trouble. And never give up. yeah.

Well, i might be going on to erm..Diploma? maybe I'll go for a PC la.

PC? its Performance Certificate.( i think )

considering i still have 2 years before i finish form 5, i think there will be a big chance I'm going to continue. well, i have to ask God about it la. And if i do continue, I'm going to be the best student. I'm not going to not practise anymore. I will use my talents to the fullest.. :]

about the exam, all i can say is it was not good, but i was not bad either, sort of a middle thing. I tried, and everything i can do is, yeah, pray.

after the exam, i considered what i should do. I WAS SOOOO CLOSE to going shopping. But i decided on something more, ahem, appropriate.

which is, finishing my homework. I haven touched it since 2 weeks ago. I'm lagging in maths 5 chapters of homework. Garrr.

I'll like to thank everyone who gave me the encouragements in that time i really wanted to quit piano, which is like, 2 weeks before the exam. And also, for the encouragements you guys gave for me to be strong in the exam. You guys are GREAT!!

God Bless!!

Labels: feelings, piano exams

Monday, July 7, 2008

Why does this familiar feeling always comes to me?

Why does it always have to be like this?

Why is it that it always happens in the same way?

WHY?

i don't blame you...I'm just blaming myself.

Someone is right... don't simply give your heart to anyone..

"Lets cut this bond between me and you,

A tale of sadness ever so true.

Just like a leaf, blown in the wind,

So did my dreams, hopes, and everything."

+The-song-of-my-broken-heart+

Labels: feelings

Sunday, July 6, 2008

I'm sick...

I'm tired...

I'm confused...

I'm stessed...

I'm restless...

I'm desperate...

I'm going to blow...

I'm sitting for my PIANO exam tommorow...

Labels: feelings

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

haih...
today piano lesson..
hand no energy...
every piece play till so c.h.a.m.

this week is an important week for me la.
to practise.
then, freedom.
I'm gonna miss piano....

Labels: feelings, random

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

look, i don't know how this happened, but it sure is strange.

today, i was going to this dreaded piano class.
after i finish the 2nd Piece ( Mozart ),
i was not expecting any good comments.

"hmm..not bad...you seem to really enjoy what you are playing...really not bad."

whaaa?

i was like, stunned.
real stunned.
not bad?
hehehehehe...
^^

strange thing is, i didn't really practise the 1st & 2nd piece, and i worked hard on scales and the 3rd piece.

but then, teacher say the pieces that she is most happy with is the 1st and 2nd piece.
and she said i need to work harder on the 3rd piece and scales.

ha??

actually i prayed this in the car on the way to piano school.
" God, please help me get through this, especially the things i didn't practice."

sure enough, He did.
God is good!

lolx.

thx EVERYONE for the great encouragements.. xDDD

Labels: feelings, piano exams

Saturday, June 21, 2008

this pianist just looks so [[me]]

"Its not whether u can get a merit or not. Now, its whether you can pass or not."

GARR....
that was what teacher told me.

yes, its the truth.
but the truth always isn't nice to hear.
*sighsss*

why did i start playing piano at the first place?
its so stupid.
compared to the other student, i really s.u.c.k.
she ( okay girls, be proud. its a girl!!) is so good until teacher has to ask her to slow down for her scales.

"hey! you are sitting for grade 8, not for diploma "

yup, thats how good she is. Even teacher has to ask her to SLOW DOWN.
and having classes with her is making things worse.

just now, teacher gave lots of comments on how to improve her peices.
me?
naah..
she rather keep her mouth shut. Don't waste saliva on me. No way.
coz i'm hopeless ain't i?
what for asking me to change?

rite after teacher said that i will fail, my mood changed the whole day.
i almost cried in the car...
after i played, teacher just said nothing, as if she just listened to rubbish.

i feel like swearing.
pfft.
i wish i could just hide under a rock, and disappear till the exam is over.

=(

I'm not even GOOD enough to fail

Labels: feelings, piano exams

Monday, June 9, 2008

I hate ppl hu reply slowly.