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The stars gave a slight glimmer to the otherwise dark and glum night. The previous delicate drizzle of raindrops had stopped, providing a slight twist of moisture in the otherwise waterless atmosphere. Rhythmic bounces of a ball can be heard, accompanied by what appears to be soft murmuring and the tuning of a guitar string, all coming from a distance.

A approaches B as B comes out of the door to meet A

A: Hey, how are you? *stages a smile*

B: I’ve been good.

A: Why don’t we go over there to the playground and sit?

B: *agrees silently*

A and B both settle down, a small gap between them even after sitting down.

A: Alright, I’ll just go straight to the point. I’m sorry for everything that happened. I just want you to know that I’m not perfect, and I have made mistakes I regretted, especially to you. Please forgive me.

*silence*

A: Its just that I don’t make enough effort to change myself for the better. I’ve tried but I admit I did not try hard enough. I am sorry for everything, and if…

B: *suddenly grabs A suddenly by the waist* (whisper) I know. Hug me.

A: *surprised, however continues on to hug B*

Flashes of memories comes back to both, a tear drops down B’s face.

B: I miss you.

A: Really?

B: Yes.

A: Look I’m sorry for everything that I have done to you. I have not done enough to…

B: I know. I know. Its okay, Its fine. Its not important. I love you.

A: *momentarily breaks away from the hug and looks at B in the eyes* I love you too, and I miss you so much.

B: I miss you so much too.

A: No more okay?

B: *sniff* okay.

A and B both go back into the hug

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This is my dream, and I wish my dream will come true

Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you've had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble?

-Tom, (500) days of summer

God, I give up.

Going through the vacancy that you left behind.

God I trust you. I really do. But I just feel this is too much for me to take, I cannot do this on my own strength.

The whole thing meant so much to me. Every single memory that has to do with you stays with me, and it haunts me. You meant so much to me, and I don’t get how you can seem so okay and I’m so broken around here. We were special, I thought we were invincible. Without you now I’m just struggling to get through each day. How do you do it? How can you cope when all that used to be, all that was important to us are now just remains of the past? Do you see my hurt and my pain? Will you even ever know of it?

God I cannot do this. Please take away my pain.

真对不起你了。

Been rediscovering life!

Can’t believe that I had blinded myself from the colours and joy of life. Am so glad that I’m rediscovering who I am, and what means the most to me. Once you find it, never ever let anyone take it away from you =)

My head is giving me life or death, but I can’t choose.