The Journey Through My ♥

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

look, i don't know how this happened, but it sure is strange.

today, i was going to this dreaded piano class.
after i finish the 2nd Piece ( Mozart ),
i was not expecting any good comments.

"hmm..not bad...you seem to really enjoy what you are playing...really not bad."

whaaa?

i was like, stunned.
real stunned.
not bad?
hehehehehe...
^^

strange thing is, i didn't really practise the 1st & 2nd piece, and i worked hard on scales and the 3rd piece.

but then, teacher say the pieces that she is most happy with is the 1st and 2nd piece.
and she said i need to work harder on the 3rd piece and scales.

ha??

actually i prayed this in the car on the way to piano school.
" God, please help me get through this, especially the things i didn't practice."

sure enough, He did.
God is good!

lolx.

thx EVERYONE for the great encouragements.. xDDD

Labels: feelings, piano exams

Saturday, June 21, 2008

this pianist just looks so [[me]]

"Its not whether u can get a merit or not. Now, its whether you can pass or not."

GARR....
that was what teacher told me.

yes, its the truth.
but the truth always isn't nice to hear.
*sighsss*

why did i start playing piano at the first place?
its so stupid.
compared to the other student, i really s.u.c.k.
she ( okay girls, be proud. its a girl!!) is so good until teacher has to ask her to slow down for her scales.

"hey! you are sitting for grade 8, not for diploma "

yup, thats how good she is. Even teacher has to ask her to SLOW DOWN.
and having classes with her is making things worse.

just now, teacher gave lots of comments on how to improve her peices.
me?
naah..
she rather keep her mouth shut. Don't waste saliva on me. No way.
coz i'm hopeless ain't i?
what for asking me to change?

rite after teacher said that i will fail, my mood changed the whole day.
i almost cried in the car...
after i played, teacher just said nothing, as if she just listened to rubbish.

i feel like swearing.
pfft.
i wish i could just hide under a rock, and disappear till the exam is over.

=(

I'm not even GOOD enough to fail

Labels: feelings, piano exams

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

its a long time since i updated my blog..
*see the spider webs in the corners?*

i have sorta nothing to blog about...
okay, I'll blog about my results in school then. =p

the overall results to me were o.k.a.y. but then, i know i could always do better if i prepared earlier and stop studying last -minute. coz it doesn't works.

overall i got 14 in my class. *yay me* =p
which was okay if u see it like this.
o.O

but actually, it was really lousy.
=(
ppl in classes like mine should have a higher standard.
and u know, our class standard just isn't what it is supposed to be.
so getting 14 is nothing to shout about.

ANYWAY.

below are to results..=p

BM ~~ 74
BC ~~ 78
BI ~~ 87
MX ~~ 89
Geo ~~ 77 =(
SEJ ~~ 72 *sadzz*
KHB ~~ 82
Sc ~~ 88

PM ~~ 66 x(
SVK ~~ 77
PS ~~ 56 * OMIGISH!!*
PJK ~~ 88 *lol*

as you can see....
most of the As are coming from the main 8 subjects..
so it was quite good..

main 8 subjects:
4A, 4B

wahahahha..
not bad lerz....

things to be happy about:

2 of my Cs coming from less important subjects.
-CHINESE!!! 78!! WOOO!!!

things to be sad about:
-not studying hard enuf =(

Things to be done:
-PREPARE EARLIER!!
-really really have to trust in God to achieve ANYTHING.

as i promised my friends and teachers, i promise now to get top 5 in next exam..
sounds impossible?
well, it does ..
but then...
with God what IS impossible?

Labels: exams

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

this post is specially dedicated to Yan Hui

first of all, i know you are tired of hearing this, i'm really really s.o.r.r.y.

=(
and secondly, i promise to chia you at Scoops.*if i had money*
i sorry for being stupid:childish:selfish:blameful:and wadeva else.
i'm sorry.

i wanted to delete the post below, but what has been, will be i guess.
i promise to be more patient with everyone.

im sorry.

i sound so lame.

Labels: apologies

Monday, June 9, 2008

I hate ppl hu reply slowly.

i hate YOU

i hate how u reply me slowly.

don't u realise i have something to tell you if i sound that urgent?

i hate how it gets me.

i'm so fustrated.

i hate you.

i really do.

i'm sorry. i went too far.

its just that i'm real fustrated.

sorry for saying i hate you.

sorry for blaming.

sorry for everything.

its all my fault.

my life is in a mess now.

Labels: feelings

Friday, June 6, 2008

=(

piano exam is on 7th July..
7TH JULY!?!?!

a very big OH NO!!
I'm not ready!!
I've been trying to practise..
but no matter how i try..
the notes won't sound right..

even if i pray to God..
it seems like I'm always praying for the WRONG reasons...
its like i can't trust God..

i'm trying to trust you God.but it just seems impossible.from my standard to a pro's standard?its just seem outta this world.=(

Labels: journey through my ♥