just a few thoughts...


from what I've experienced and learnt so far.
exams are just exams la.
marks are not important,
its the EFFORT that counts.
i realise that if u don't get good marks you have nobody to blame but yourself.
it doesn't matter if u failed if u did your best.
all you can do is say : "well, i did my best. "
then i can infer that i have to right to be disappointed with myself if i don't work hard.
simple?
some ppl blame it on the day.
'why is today not going well for me?'
hmmm, i have nothing to say, u want to think that way, your problem.
some ppl blame it on life.
'well, life's like that. you don't get it all'
hey, no effort, of course don't get anything la.
maybe some people blame it on teachers.
' that teacher kanasai la, dunno how to teach wan. '
then how come other ppl can get full marks le?
the thing we should do is,
ask ourselves.
reflect.
is this really all i can do?
search deep in you heart. motivate yourself.
how can i make myself earn the good marks?
hmm.
success start from yourself. nothing is to be blamed for failure except yourself.
of course, God plays a big part too.
as long as you rely on him, he will guide you.
'WE WILL NEVER SURRENDER!' -- copyright @kiki.

and even getting good results. does that mean you have the right to shout and scream?
jump up and down?
what do you think the ppl who didn't get good results will feel?
i feel we should comfort those who didn't get good results.
build them up.
just think, what if the person who didn't get good results was you?
its hard rite?
'always look at the other side of the coin' --- famous quote by Caleb which i cannot forget.


sorry guys, recently i like to express my point of view. xD

They say love is about giving, not receiving.
but can a person keep constantly give, unconditionally, without receiving anything back?
CAN HE? OR SHE?







sorry, I've just realised that my last few posts are all wordy =(

Summarizing up today..=)



Chem, Lang Arts and Core Maths are gone!! yay.
I'm quite confident about the Lang Arts and Core Maths but Chem, haih,
dunno whether will pass or not. hope the result not too bad la anyway.
PE today. i was shocked and terrified when teacher said we're going for 3.2 km run.
i was like.OMG OMG OMG OMG.
but then lucky teacher was like slowing down his speed so its like okay lo.
I SURVIVED! running all the way too! was quite pleased with my performance la. lol

and then today we had FLIP (Financial Literacy something something...I forgot xD)
and Joshua Foo was OMG OMG-ing HIGH. and you know why?
He was flirting the whole way with the teacher. OMG OMG OMG.
what are you doing on Saturday, Madam?
omg, we were laughing at his obsession with our teacher.. =P
and then after that he was like so happy. xDD

after that the next interesting thing that happen in school was our presentation at Language Arts period.
our group was presenting something about Nancy which is a character in a passage.
i was saying something like Nancy supported her husband and therefore can be counted as loyal.
then me and teacher "argued" about that coz she didn't think it can be counted as loyal. then i just said that loyalty has many meanings and you should look at it from different perspective etc. etc. lol.
imagine crapping during a class lesson. lols.
then some ppl wanted to ask some questions just for making us speechless lo.
something like, how do you know Nancy's husband was successful coz Nancy supported him.
then my friend tried and tried to explain.
then i got a brilliant idea.
i said :"well, you know, there is a saying that goes 'Behind every successful man there is a WOMAN' "
haha, and teacher laughed and applauded me and said good point coz obviously she is a woman too.
the person who asked the question was really stunned.
haha, Kenneth. I Owned YOU! lol

then, the rest of the day went back to normal lo.
am a bit angry with some ppl who thinks

"ROOMMATE" = "ROOMMAID"

I'm also quite frustrated la.
coz recently when i call ppl up they have so many reasons.
some study, and battery low, or sleepy, o maybe taking care of babies that kinda stuff.
I'm not blaming you guys la, its just a sign that i miss you guys a lot. lol.
=(

Labels: school

today, i was on the brink of crying 2 times.
one was at 12 something something in the morning. so its counted as today also haha.
as i was hugging my bear to sleep it reminded me of EVERYTHING back home.
family, friends, pasir ulu, camps, everything laaa....
then i remembered my mom waving goodbye to me at the airport.
then the tears came, but i quickly stopped them anyways.
I'm even close to crying now once I've thought of it.
=(



then i woke up and did the daily things i needed to do.
walking down for breakfast, i told myself that i wanted to make today a DIFFERENT day.
haha, indeed it was.. in a bad way lo. =(
haih.
today there was subjects like physics and chemistry.
and i didn't even understand a word what teacher was talking.
its not like i didn't try to listen at all.
i tried the whole freaking period.
the worst part of it was teacher:"any questions?"
i really want to ask but..
i really don't want to slow down the progress of the class.
and so i asked Jeremy about those things, its there when i felt that i was really disturbing him from his studies in class too.
i think he also felt annoyed lo..
its there when i felt like crying.
desperately forcing myself to stop,
i felt so weak, hopeless, so powerless.
haih.
I'm really trying hard, i believe, i try.
I'm asking questions, but instead of getting answers, i am disturbing other people's progress in their studies.
i really really have to say sorry particularly to Jeremy who sits behind me as he is the one that always helps me in school. I'm sorry, its just that people like u with so much ambition and hope in them is so hard to find these days. never give up in everything you do. you know what I'm talking about..
and also to my prep session friend who sits beside me---Aravindh (haha, i finally got your name right)
sorry for disturbing you particularly when you're studying history with all my maths things and stuff.
but after that thing i really felt no mood to study anymore.
then there is core maths tomorrow, which I'm gonna be so in trouble.
don't ask me to look at the brighter side as there isn't one.
what a DIFFERENT day.